little update

so i might my other PAL today. he is the cutest little boy ever. he's the complete opposite of Carrington, my PAL from lamkin. he's really talkative and goes off on random tangents about his dogs when i ask him questions and he ALWAYS smiles. and he's in second grade. oh and his name is Jayce. he's absolutely adorable. we're going to be very best friends. and he's an only child and he told me sometimes he likes to pretend that his dogs are his brothers and sisters. and he said he has two pittbulls too!! that made me really excited. hahah. i love PALs so much. it's the only thing i look forward to at school.

on a different note, this week has been really good. monday i was really really stressed out about everything i had to do this week. but God totally calmed me down and i started looking at things a little bit more rationally. it's amazing what God does. i can't get over it.

• so tomorrow i have a calculus test. i kind of feel like i'm at that point where i can't really study, i can only practice how to do it to drill it into my head, although i already know how to do it. hopefully that goes well. i'm a little nervous because i don't know what i made on my last test. and i know it shouldn't matter, but i like knowing whether i need to try hard or not. haha
• and my computer science project was originally due on wednesday but the deadline was pushed back until tomorrow at the end of the period. definitely a HUGE blessing because it took me a few days to figure out how to do everything.
• i have to finish reading book one of 1984 tonight. i have trouble keeping focus in that book. i think i was asleep when i read half of it. hahah.
• there's this big 10,000 dollar scholarship that i'm applying for and it's all due next saturday. i still have to write an essay, record an audition (it's a music scholarship. it's really tight. i can use it for tuition OR for buying a bassoon), get teacher recommendations, send a transcript and all that jazz. i'm not sure if i'll have it done in time. but the good thing is if i don't make the november 1 deadline, there's a january 1 deadline. but they encourage seniors to apply by november. but we'll just see how that goes.
• my OU application is finally done! thanks to my mom, jon, and mrs kessler for revising and editing my scholarship essays. i really couldn't have gotten through it all without them. i'm horrible with words.
• area marching band competition on saturday. i kind of hope we make it to finals, and i kind of don't really care. and i kind of hope we make it to state, but at the same time i don't because i don't want to miss a day of school. but we'll see how that works out. i'm kind of excited. bassoon solo! yay!

and the best part of my week:

JON COMES HOME TOMORROW!
and he's coming to the football game and we're leaving after half-time and hanging out :)
i'm so excited. but i don't want the weekend to end. because once he leaves, i won't see him again until christmas. which means he won't be here for my birthday. but i don't like to think about that. so yay i get to seehim tomorrow!

so yeah.. that's my little update thing on my life. haha

PALs

Today my PALs class went to Lamkin to meet our little PALees! It was the best experience I've had all year so far. We left the school on the bus and I was soooooooo excited. I could barely sit in my seat. And then we got to Lamkin and we all had to sit in the library and wait for the kiddos to come. And while we were waiting we looked at the list that had the name of our little PAL on it. Then the kids came and sat down and they're so little! i mean, they're third graders, but still. I forget how small children actually are because I spend most of my time around high schoolers and junior highers. Then the big PALs went outside and waited while Kobal talked to the little ones, I guess. And we were all sooooooooo excited. It was great. All the energy and positivity was just.. exciting. And then the babies came outside and we cheered for them and then Kobal paired us up. And my kid is a little black girl named Carrington. She is soooooooo sweet. She was really really really shy at first. But then she opened up a lot. Our assignment today was to talk about our favorite things. So I asked her questions and she answered them and then she would start asking me questions, too! It was sooooo cute. One of the questions she asked was "Are you in 11th grade?" and i said "No, I'm in 12th grade," and she made this face that was so shocked like "WOAH YOU'RE OLD!" hahaha. And then when we were leaving, I turned to her and said "You rock!" and she said "You rock, too!" and it was amazing. I gave her a high five and walked over to where the Big PALs were meeting and turned around and she was waving at me. It was the best feeling in the world.

i'm so excited to see how God is going to use me in this little girl's life.