Here are some things that I've learned about myself this year:
1. I'm too hard on myself. Especially concerning my bassoon playing.
2. I doubt. Everything. It's unhealthy, because I don't research to prove myself wrong. I just wallow.
3. I think too much. And usually pessimistically. One little negative thought turns into an ocean of misery.
4. I cannot write. I'm really good at getting the ideas out (once I have them) but forming coherent, flowing sentences is not my strong suit.
5. I take a lot of time to figure out the right words to say. Sometimes too much time.
6. There are very few people that I fully trust. And it is very easy to break my trust. I wish it wasn't that way.
7. I feel other people's emotions. I cry when you're sad, I rejoice when you're happy. Although sometimes it's a burden, it truly is a blessing and a gift. It helps me to be more sensitive.
8. I really like the color red. But it's not my favorite color.
9. Things have always come very easily to me. College is going to kick my butt next year.
10. I am not worthy or deserving of God's love in the least bit. But somehow, and I will always be grateful for this, His unconditional love is always there.
