bahahahahahah. so i had to work tonight. and i am required to park at the 24 hour fitness across the street to allow more parking spaces for customers. so i'm driving into the parking lot and it is totally PACKED. there were absolutely NO parking spaces. luckily, someone was pulling out as i was pulling in and i snagged a spot where i usually park. i was extremely confused why there were so many cars there. and then i went to work at 5:40. i left early and clocked out at 6:40 because there was absolutely NOBODY at chick-fil-a. i saw a total of three children there and by 6:30 two of them had left and the other was playing in the play place. so i had the option of going home and working on more scholarships (i've been really motivated for scholarships. i'll get to that in a second as soon as i'm done ranting about this) or dancing by myself in a cow costume for an hour and a half longer. i chose the former. so i'm walking across the street to go to my car and leave and the parking lot is STILL packed. and all of the sudden, i realize why. new years' resolutions. everyone wants to get in shape. and i started laughing out loud. i'm making a little bet with myself to see how long it takes for all the hype about staying fit dies down and i can finally find a parking space easily again.

on a different note, SCHOLARSHIPS! i've really been on fire today about scholarships, and hopefully this lasts a while. because last night, as i was laying in bed ATTEMPTING to sleep, i got extremely stressed out. i was just breaking down because i was so uncertain about everything. if i don't get enough scholarship money to go to OU, i'm going to have to go to community college or LSU. and i definitely don't want to do that. i mean, my parents would pay and get loans and stuff so i COULD go where i wanted, but i wouldn't ask that of them. not just so i can become a teacher. and i don't want to come out of college with a bunch of debt. so i was freaking out. and i was just praying and praying about it. and somehow i fell asleep. and so this morning during first period i went to the counselors to give them a counselor report thing for this one scholarship that is due this friday. then during third period, the counselor called me in to ask me a question about the thing, and we talked and she's really nice (she's rooting for the Gators to win the football game on thursday, though. so she's automatically knocked down a few spots on my lists. haha just kidding) and she gave me a few other schloarships to apply for. and one of them is due on wednesday and hopefully not many people will apply for it. and this other one i'm not sure about, but i'll try it anyways. what the heck right? so hopefully i'll just keep finding scholarships to apply for and be diligent about it so i can get some money for college. i can't think of anywhere else i'd rather be than the University of Oklahoma.

oh and since i talked about new years resolutions, here is my list of ongoing goals that i have had for the past about 7 months and i'm just kind of... renewing them and making them a little bit more challenging.

1. i will read my Bible or do some sort of Bible study every day. (i know i will fail at this because i'm human. but it's always a good goal to have!)
2. i will not drink soda for the rest of the year. 2009 will be soda free (over teh summer i decided to go on a soda fast and i just continued it into the school year. but i've been breaking it quite a bit lately and i can definitely tell the effects it's having on me)
3. i will not eat any food after 9:00 pm (once again, something i started at the beginning of the school year and i haven't been very diligent about it lately)
4. i will work on scholarships at least every other day (this one is new)
5. i will not stress out about things that don't matter and i will put complete trust in the Lord and just wait for things to work out in His timing. i will also try my best not to be negative. (i will also fail at this because i'm human and that is my tendency. but i've been making a conscious effort to not be like that and i've been having trouble with that lately)

so there you go. try to keep me accountable, if you will. :)