Shock.

I hate being shocked. I don't mean physically. I mean emotionally. I mean mentally.

I hate finding out that people are changing. I can handle seeing someone change gradually. But it's so hard to handle when it all comes at you at once and you suddenly realize they aren't who they used to be. It's hard to grasp that things will never be the same. It's hard to accept that things are no longer how they once were and it can never go back.

I don't like growing up. I don't like what it brings.