Stress

Today has been so stressful.

Since I'm not going to be at school Wednesday, I've had to do all the homework that's due Tomorrow, Wednesday, AND Thursday tonight. That's a lot of stuff to do! And it doesn't help that I have no idea if I'm doing the theory homework correctly (my brain just can't wrap itself around the concept of Sevenths. I don't really understand how to get a half-diminished seventh and stuff. But I guess that's why I'm at college.), I had to do some dictation homework (for those of you who are non-musicians or don't know what that means, it means listening to a melody, a complex rhythm, or a series of regular and inverted chords, and figuring out what it is without looking at anything and writing it down. I've never been good at learning things by ear) and one of the chords just doesn't make sense. I think it's a Five Seventh (I have no idea how to write that out without the roman numerals and subcriptions - and there we are with the Sevenths again!), but it sounds like there's only two notes in it. Ugh! And, nobody ever does their homework before the night before it's due, so I have nobody to compare with! I hate our generation of procrastinators! I also have a Spanish quiz tomorrow. My brain is so filled with everything else I have to remember for the next few days that I can't remember all the dumb words. And it's all food! It should be easy! But no. UGHHH I AM SO STRESSED.

I've been doing so good this week. I've been staying busy. I haven't been dwelling. I went to Jon's the night I found out and just sobbed. And after that, I told myself I was going to put it behind me at least until the funeral, and then I'm going to move on. I've been doing so good. But tonight, I have nothing to do. Nobody to talk to. Nothing to distract me but my computer and my TV. And I can't help but think about how she's not going to be there at Easter, or my birthday, or Thanksgiving, or Christmas. I wish I hadn't thrown all the birthday and Christmas cards from her away. Nobody close to me has ever died before. I mean, my aunt died when I was in middle school. But she lived in North Carolina and I only saw her a few times in my life. My mom's best friend's son died. He lived in Louisiana, and I have many memories of hanging out with him and his brothers when we would visit or when they would. But I hadn't seen him in years before he died. But I saw Grandma multiple times a year. It's going to be so weird.

I can't even remember her voice anymore.

MORE!

I would just like to point out that within a few weeks, I've posted more blogs than I did in a full year.

The first week of school is done! I had two quizzes today. I think I made a 100 on my theory one, and I got 43.5/44 on my Spanish one. But, I'm going to get a 0 next week on a theory quiz because I'm flying home and I'll miss it. But luckily we have like 50 or so quizzes in that class (3 a week) so it shouldn't hurt me too much.

I'm flying home next Tuesday night for my grandma's funeral next Wednesday. And then I'm flying back to Norman Wednesday night. I can't remember if I already said that in another post. It's been a long day.

Jon's out of town this weekend, and all of my friends are busy. This is going to be super boring.

And finally, I love Disney.

Group Fitness

I paid for a Group Fitness membership today! Woohoo! I'm so excited! I love Zumba. It's awkward and sometimes hard, but I love it. And it makes my legs so sore. My inner thighs burn every time I walk. I love it.

I think I'm going to do Zumba twice a week, if not more. The class I'll go to on Monday with Laney is easy. And then the hard class is Tuesday and Thursday. Amy made me go yesterday. Ouch. Haha.

And I'm really excited about beginning yoga! I know I'm going to suck because I have HORRIBLE balance, but maybe this will help? But I have to miss the first class because I'm flying home next Tuesday for Grandma's funeral Wednesday morning and flying back later on Wednesday, and I'm only assuming I won't get back in time for them class. But who knows? I haven't booked my flight yet, so maybe I will be back by 7:45. But I kind of want to just stay at home for as long as possible, so my flight will probably be late.

ZUMBA

Since I wasn't in the mood to really update about how my first day of classes went yesterday, I'll update about it today.

I have 8:30am/8:00am classes again this semester. And I will have them for the next two semesters as well. Remind me why I picked Music Ed? 

Anyways, TR I have Aural Skills II, then Spanish Cont., then Teaching Techniques.

I'm nervous about Aural Skills because even though the grading scale is now 90-100 is an "A" (as opposed to last semester when 93-100 was an "A"), it's going to get a lot harder. And the only reason I made an A last semester was because I got two extra credit points on my final grade because I didn't miss any class. We'll see how that goes. I'll just have to practice a lot? I'm really bad at Sight Singing and Dictation. Ugh.

Spanish will be okay. My teacher's name is Lourdes Yen. Confused about her ethnicity? Her first name is Spanish because she was born somewhere in Latin America and lived there her whole life. Her last name is Taiwanese because she's Taiwanese. So she has the (pardon my stereotyping) high pitched, nasal-y voice of asian women. And her accent when she tries to speak english is so strange. It's hard to understand her spanish AND her english. But I think it's just something I have to get accustomed to. I actually enjoy spanish though. I wish I could be fluent in it, but after this semester, I have no more room to take more classes since it's a 5 hour course.

Teaching Techniques is going to be a blast. I love being in Music Ed because the same group of people are in the same classes semester to semester. Teaching Tech. is the same group of kids as my Intro to Music Ed class. So we already have our relationships formed and know each other well enough to goof around. Example: We had to go around the circle and say our name, what we play, and what we think our strongest teacher feature is. When it got to me, I said "I'm Taylor, I play bassoon, and I think my strongest point is my flexibility..." and before I could continue on with my sentence, everybody started laughing because that could be taken the wrong way. And I'm pretty sure my face got red. But I'm not worried about it because we're a great group of kids. It's going to be a great class. Oh, and what I meant by flexibility is my ability to teach in different styles and alter the methods I use to teach kids that learn differently. I eventually got that out after the giggles died down.

Now I'll update you about my classes today. (But first, I want to let you know that having the first day of classes on a Tuesday really is throwing me off. AND it doesn't help that last semester, Aural Skills was MWF, and now it's TR. And last semester Theory was TR and now it's MWF.) MWF I have Theory, Spanish, and Music in Cultures back to back to back with no break. Gross. Then, depending on which band I make, I'll either go straight Wind Ensemble, or have a two hour break and go to Symphony Band.  And W will be the worst because I'll have my piano lesson AND bassoon studio.

Theory: I like last semester's professor a lot better. But I guess I'm not really giving this new one a chance. But I'm excited about learning more theory. I really enjoyed that class, and I did really well. The only thing that makes me nervous is that we have a quiz EVERY DAY. Yikes. 

Spanish: See a few paragraphs above this.

Music in Cultures: Oh. My. Gosh. I don't even know where to start. I THINK this class is about music of the native americans/indigenous people all over the world. But I can't be sure because the teacher is on Speed or something. She's somewhat old, talks really fast, and goes off on random tangents about everything. She'll stop mid-sentence and be like "Oh and don't even get me started on blah blah blah" and talks about that forever until something else comes up. It's just really hard to follow her. But I've heard the class is really easy so hopefully I'll be okay.

I'm also going to sign up for some Group Fitness Classes. This week, the classes are free. So I went to the "easy" Zumba class after my band auditions (I was really nervous about the auditions, but it ended up being really relaxed. And I think I did really well considering I didn't get to practice much since I had my teeth extracted). I got there about ten minutes late because the auditions were running late, so I went to the back with Ashley (future roommate), her sister Sarah, and her hallmate Catherine (or is it with a "K"? I can't remember). Amy (my current roommate) and her BFF Alanna were in the front. Basically, I LOVE ZUMBA. I felt really awkward because my coordination has drastically gotten worse since I quit dance seven years ago. But it was a lot of fun. It really got my heart pumping. I'm so out of shape. I'm hoping this will help me get in shape. So I'm going to take a Zumba class Monday nights, and Amy and I are going to take a Beginning Yoga class Wednesday nights. I'm so excited!

So, that's what school looks like for me. I haven't decided what I think of it, yet.

Today

Today was the first day of classes.

Today my grandmother passed away.

Back at School

I'm back at OU. I have to admit, the urges to update my blog have decreased to almost nothing. But I'm updating it anyways!

I got back Saturday evening. Jon and I caravanned to Norman. However, we were delayed because at the gas station where we stopped outside of Dallas, I locked my keys in my car. This is a mistake I often make. But usually, one of the other doors are unlocked. This time they weren't. So I had to call AAA (I never know whether to write "Triple A" or "AAA." But you get the picture.) and wait for them to send a wrecker to open my car. Other than that, it was a pretty smooth trip.

Yesterday, Jon and I ran some errands. One of those was picking out a new fish for Jon! I convinced him to get two since they were only 28 cents. One's big with bright orange and yellow. The other's one's small and extremely hyper. I love them.

Today, Jon and I went out to eat with his new roommate, Koen. Koen is from the Netherlands. He's an exchange student studying American Studies (weird, right?) for his Masters. He's so cute! I love his accent! And he's extremely tall and 24. Haha. Anyways, when I read his name, I thought it would be pronounced "Coh-In" but it's not. It's like "Coon." Like raccoon without the ra. But I think Jon and his other roommates are going to call him Coh-in anyways.

Then I practiced bassoon in my dorm room. It was weird. I felt really self-conscious because the walls are paper thin. But I couldn't practice for long because the back of my mouth (where my wisdom teeth used to be) started to hurt. When I play bassoon, there's a lot of back pressure and so I guess since the holes aren't totally healed it started to hurt. I don't know how this is going to work out since I have band and lessons and studio and stuff. I'm getting kind of nervous.

Classes start tomorrow. It's going to be so weird starting on a Tuesday. I hate my schedule this semester. I feel like I'm in high school again because I go from 8 am to 2:30/4:00 depending on the day. It sucks.

I want to teach.

Ryan, invite me to read your blog!

Okay. Now that I got that out of my system.

Yesterday was my mom's birthday! I woke up, took a shower, and then spent the WHOLE day with her. We went to lunch, went to the mall, came home and took a power nap that ended up only being a few minutes because we had to go to Jersey Village to watch my brother wrestle his first Varsity match. He got pinned pretty quickly :( I felt so sad for him, because that was the only time he could wrestle. I miss him wrestling. I hope he gets really good, gets a full ride to OU, and then we'll be there for a semester together and I can go to his matches! Then we (mom and me) went to a hibachi grill with my aunt and my neighbor. I love that place. Then we came home and went to bed. Haha

Today I went to two elementary schools. At the first, I sat in on some one-on-one Special Ed classes. If I did Special Ed, that's what I'd want to do. Elementary school one-on-one stuff. Not para, not Life Skills. The little boys that were there were so adorable and the gratification of teaching a student with disabilities how to read and add. Oh it was just amazing. And I sat in on the music class. I'm torn, because I really want to do the S.E. but I really want to do the general music. Maybe it will all work out one day. At the second school, I sat in on some Music Therapy sessions. I now know that is not what I want to do. Yes, it was cool, and yes, I could do it. But I'd be happier being a teacher. I want to teach. I'm meant to be a teacher.

My Day

I forgot how great it is to just talk about everything.

Zachary Wilbur Horst, I've missed you.

I miss having someone to talk to for hours and hours about everything and not worrying about judgements and all that jazz.



I took Garrett (my brother) to the dentist today. We got there on time for our 3:00 appointment. We left at 5:00. I was peeved. But I knit the whole time. I finished the dumb scarf I've been working on for a year. Okay, not really a year. I took a semester long break. But still. AND it's ugly. Ugh. I hate it. My mom said she would take it. So I gave it to her. Haha I doubt she'll wear it. But now I can start on a new one. A pretty one. The other one was only ugly because of the yarn I chose. It just wasn't working.




Tomorrow is my mom's birthday! We're going to lunch and then just hanging out.

Knitting, Baking, and Flushing

Yesterday I got a knitting book at Barnes & Noble. So naturally, I've been knitting all day. Literally. I feel pretty proud of myself. I learned how to purl stitch, made a large swatch of the "Basket Weave Pattern" and made a swatch where it's argyles. Yes, I knit argyle. I'm super excited to make a scarf with it. I also learned how to weave the extra yarn when I'm finished back into the scarf, rather than tying a knot and cutting it and hoping it never comes undone. I wish I had more time to knit.

Jon came over for dinner with my family. Earlier today I read Jenny & Tyler's blog about the recipe for brownies from scratch. So, as Jon & Taylor, we decided to make them! They were pretty good! But when Jon was measuring the unsweetened cocoa, instead of measuring 4 tablespoons, he accidentally did 4 spoons that equaled 4 teaspoons. So instead of 4 tablespoons, it was 16 teaspoons. Oops! So the brownies weren't as sweet as they were supposed to be. But we did a quick fix and sprinkled powder sugar on it! I had never made brownies from scratch before. I love baking things from scratch. I feel so accomplished. When I have a family, I'm going to be the type of mom that bakes all day. I can't wait. I also can't wait to have my own apartment next semester with a kitchen.

Also, after dinner, I had to use the Syringe of Doom and stick the syringe INTO the holes in my mouth and flush it out with water. Unfortunately, my stomach is not that strong. I couldn't even handle watching the doctor do it in the mirror. So I had Mom do it. Not fun. Fdhgsjlfgajhdg.

Tomorrow I'm getting breakfast with Zach! And afterwards I'm getting lunch with Jon. And then I'm starting to pack to leave. It will be a fun and busy day tomorrow.

More

I forgot I wanted to update about some of the stuff that happened today.

I had my one week check up with my surgeon who took out my wisdom teeth. People have been telling me about this Syringe of Doom they had to do. I thought I just didn't have one. I do. I got it today. I have to stick the tip of the syringe INTO the holes in my mouth and flush out whatever is in there with water. I freaked out just watching the doctor do it to me in the mirror. I am not going to be able to do this. Which is why I love the convenience of having my boyfriend live a minute away at school. He is the best. I asked him if he'd do it for me so I wouldn't have to throw up every time I tried, and he said yes. Oh, my man is definitely a keeper. (:

I also got a knitting book at Barnes & Noble with mom today. I wish I had more time to knit.

Not Bored Enough?

I've been wanting to just post a list of Likes and Dislikes, but, surprisingly, I haven't been bored enough the past few days to do that. It'll happen soon. I feel it.

Yesterday I went to lunch with some PALs friends. One thing I've realized since being in college is that while PALs was an organization that was alcohol and tobacco free, it was more about the attitudes and the decisions. I'm not a PAL anymore, but I consider myself one because I'm still holding myself to the standards that PALs held me too. I'm a PAL because of the decisions I make. I don't make those decisions because I'm (well, used to be) a PAL.

Then Morgan and I went to our hair stylist. She got her hair colored and I got mine cut. I look pretty hot now, not gunna lie. ;)

Then we went to pick up my Uncle Tom and Aunt Michele (they're in from Nevada to visit my Grandma in the hospital) and we saw Avatar. Really great movie! I thought it would be dumb. I felt really odd seeing it with them though because before my extended family went their separate ways on Christmas Day, Grandma asked me if I wanted to see Avatar with her that weekend and since I was getting ready to leave for El Paso, I never made the time. And then she had her heart attack while I was gone. I felt like I was cheating on her or something.

Then after that, we all went to the hospital and saw Grandma. She's doing "better" I guess. She still has breathing tubes and feeding tubes. But she opens her eyes and moves her head a little bit when we talk to her. I miss her. I hope she gets better.

Then immediately after that I went to pick up Jon and we had a double date with Alexa and Panda. We went to McDonald's for ice cream and then to Kroger. I've always wanted to have a Kroger date! We each had to find the most romantic items for under five dollars (total). It was awesome. Then we just walked around and stuff. Lots of fun.

Very busy day.



Today I went shopping with Mom. I like spending time with her. She misses me a lot.

Dreams

I've been having some crazy dreams since I've been home.

Last night was horrible though. It was bloody and gory and just plain horrible.

At first it was the drumline at OU unloading the truck and stuff and we had practice and everything was normal (well in the dream it was normal. Real life would have been crazy). But then when we went to load everything back into the truck, it turned into a movie kind of. And it reminded me of Inglourious Basterds. It became a war scene where people in blue uniforms began throwing Chinese fighting stars or whatever and bow and arrows and knifes and stuff (at least there were no guns?) at the people loading. It was a total ambush. There was blood everywhere. And then the "shot" (as in film shot) goes to this teenage boy who just had an arrow go through his chest and a blond teenage girl with her hair in braided pigtails (in a uniform) is leaning over him and hugging and kissing him and telling him she's going to pretend to be dead so she can win the war. And then her mother runs up and is like "What are you doing? No!" and all that.

It was just horrible. I'm glad Jon called and woke me up when he did.

The Wedding

I feel like I've been updating my blog A LOT lately. I kind of like it. Maybe I'll try to keep up with it when school starts? Although I'm nearly 92% certain that nobody but Zach reads it. (Not even Jon! I have to tell him to read certain posts if I want him to read it. It feels incredibly lame.) Anyways... maybe I'll put this on my facebook or something? I don't know. (Side note: It made me smile when my computer underlined "facebook" in red telling me it wasn't a real word.)

ANYWAYS

I hope the title of this blog didn't give you false hope or anxiety or anything. It's merely the title of the book I'm reading. I'm about forty pages from the end. I posted a blog earlier about it when I found out it was a follow up to The Notebook (my all time favorite book AND movie.) The main characters in this book are the daughter and son-in-law of Noah and Allie, the main characters in The Notebook, and the book is told from the son-in-law's, Wilson's, point of view.

The point of this blog, is to let you know how much I think men in general would benefit from reading this book. I love all of Nicholas Sparks' books. But this one seems to really speak about the types of things that let a woman know you love her.

Here's the summary from the back of the book:

After thirty years, Wilson Lewis is forced to face a painful truth. His wife, Jane, has fallen out of love with him, and it entirely his fault. Despite the shining example of his in-laws, Noah and Allie Calhoun, and their fifty-year love affair, Wilson is unable to express his true feelings. He has spent too little time at home and too much at the office. Now his daughter is about to marry, and his wife is thinking about leaving him. But if Wilson is sure of anything, it's this: His love for Jane has grown over the years, and he will do anything he can to save their marriage. With the memories of Noah and Allie's inspiring life together as his guide, he vows to find a way to make his wife fall in love with him... all over again.

So, I admit the summary isn't too captivating. But the whole book is full of memories of how Jane and Wilson met and why they loved each other in the first place and memories of Noah and Allie's life post-marriage, but pre-Alzheimers (which is not talked about in The Notebook). And Wilson figures out the perfect anniversary gift and just everything he's doing to make her fall in love with him. And it's less about what he does and more about how his attitude towards her and their relationship changes. It's just beautiful, and it's not hidden in a metaphor. It's simply stated.

Basically, I think anybody could learn a lot from this book (I know I have), but more specifically men. Because the things Wilson does in this book aren't necessarily impossible (expensive, yes, but he's also a partner in a law firm) and it just shows how simple showing how much you love someone can be.

I know I'm a hopeless romantic. I'm a girl. The ideas of love fill my mind more often than not. And I know in general guys hate romantic books. But, boy, you could sure learn a lot about what women ideally want if you just picked up a book.

B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

I just peeled a banana the "right" way and I feel much more satisfied.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBJV56WUDng

Annoyance

Annoyance: When people who are in no way affiliated with a college use the first person when referring to said college's football team.

Example:

Non-Student/Non-Alum/Non-Family-Member-of-Student-or-Alum: Man, we almost had that game. But at least we had class and kept fighting. We'll win next year!

I understand using "we" if you were associated with and had actual ties to the team. Yes, I occasionally say "we" when referring to OU's football team (Example: We won!). However, if I went to a private college or a junior college or no college at all, I would never include myself as part of a team. I wouldn't even say "we" when talking about A&M, and that's where my mom went!

Basically, the football team plays football. The team practices a million hours a week. The team undergoes more stress and pressure than anyone could imagine. Everyone else sits in the stands or on their couches or in a bar and watches the game. The team reacts to the outcome of the game. The fans (which are separated from the team) react differently. Especially fans who don't/didn't go to that school.

You, fan, do not have class because of what the football team did. The football team has class because of what the football team did.

Nicholas Sparks

I've recently discovered just how much I love Nicholas Sparks and his books. I had my neighbor bring home some of his books from the library for me to read while I'm at home.

Anyways, I just started reading "The Wedding." It was obviously written after "The Notebook." So I'm sitting here, just reading, and I'm about twenty pages into the story when I read the names Noah Calhoun and his wife Allie. Those are the names of the two characters in the The Notebook! It's just blowing my mind! APPARENTLY this story is written as a follow up to The Notebook, and Jane, the main character's wife, is the daughter of Noah and Allie! But this isn't a sequel or anything. I'm just in shock. I didn't even suspect the stories were connected.

I hope I like this one. Up until now I thought it was slightly boring.

Coming Soon To A Theater Near You

Taylor and the Chipmunks.

I wonder when my face will start to unswell.

I've lost my wisdom.

So yesterday morning I got my wisdom teeth out. Just to clarify, my wisdom teeth hadn't grown in yet, so I had to go to an oral surgeon and have them dig them out from underneath my gums so that they wouldn't cause the rest of my teeth to become crooked. So anyways, I got to the surgeon and I was REALLY nervous. More nervous about the IV than them taking the teeth out. So while I was in my room thing, I devised a plan to make the needle entering my skin less painful. Mom would pinch the other arm as hard as possible while they insert the needle so I would be distracted from the pinching pain. It didn't work. So the last thing I remember before the surgery was telling Mom was how the plan didn't work, but both my arm and my hand still hurt. Then I woke up and the nurse was in the room and told me it was over. The next thing I remember was being in a wheel chair outside of the elevator with the nurse and saying "My face is swollen. My face is swollen" and she told me it wasn't, it only felt that way because I was numb. And when I told her no it was really swollen, she said there's a mirror in the elevator I can look at. Then I remember being wheeled out of the downstairs main office and being really embarrassed. Next I was outside of Mom's car and the nurse was telling me to put my feet down. Then I remember getting into the car and telling her how I woke up in the middle of the procedure and there were blue towels covering my face and I could hear machines going and stuff. Then all I remember is Uncle Tom helping to walk me to the front door, and then I was laying down in bed. Oh and I remember Mom getting the video camera and telling me to tell her everything I told her in the car. And then I drifted off while Mom went to go get my pain medication, and woke up when she came back and I barely slept the rest of the day. Jon came over and helped me while Mom went to the hospital to visit Grandma (btw, the hospital's thinking about moving her to another care center, and Uncle Eddie isn't going to have surgery, so he's back home). Then yesterday evening right after Mom got off the phone with my surgeon (who called to check up on me), she gave me the pain pills and a few minutes later I threw them up. And then about an hour later she gave me another pain pills and within the hour I had thrown up again. It was miserable. I hate throwing up. It made me cry both times. So she called the surgeon, and he called in a prescription for nausea pills and Mom picked those up at 11 at night and I tried one of those. And so far, it seems to be working. I haven't felt nauseous all day and I've been taking pain pills. But the downside is the nausea pills make me really really drowsy, so I've been sleeping all day. And my mouth really hurts because I'm only taking one pain pill instead of two since I'm taking the nausea pills. AND my cheeks are starting to swell. Mom calls them chipmunk cheeks. Anyways, that is all for the day.

Sorry that was one long continuous paragraph. I took a nausea pill about an hour ago so I'm getting pretty drowsy and it's hard for me to think on an upper level writing skill. Like I said, I've lost my wisdom.

Another Post? Say What?

Enjoy this rare occurrence.

Today I went to the college service. I really really enjoyed it. It was stuff I had been needing to hear. I kind of wish I could go more often, but seeing that I live more than 400 miles away, I know that can't happen. I just hope the college services up at school are like that. I like the small-enough-to-be-intimate-but-large-enough-so-it's-not-awkward-on-your-first-few-visits type of setting. Haha. And it was great to see everybody again! I've missed everyone so much.

After church, I came home and had lasagna with my family + Uncle Tom and Uncle Joe (who flew in from Nevada to be with Grandma). They've (including my mom) have been so dedicated to visiting her. I love my family so much. They go up to the hospital every single visiting hour. That's every two hours starting at 9 until 5. And then again at 8. Our whole family's schedule is revolving around those hours.

After lunch, I pretty much just hung out at home and watched TV and stuff. Not much going on.

Then at 6 (which was just after the 5:00 visiting hour) we all went to Del Pueblo's since there isn't any good Mexican food in Nevada. I got queso AND sopapillas! It was such a treat! Then we finished dinner in time to go to the 8:00 visiting hour. I went this time. It was the first time I'd gone to visit her. I held my composure until it was just Mom, Grandma, and me in the room. And then I started crying a lot. But only for a minute because I knew it was time to go. I'm pretty proud of myself. My sister barely lasted a minute in the room when she visited before she had to leave. Anyways, what's going on with my grandma is she had a MASSIVE heart attack on the 29th of December. She went to the hospital and she was moving around a lot and really distressed so they had to sedate her. So she's on a food tube, a breathing tube, and lots of other tubes. This morning they took her off of the sedatives but she's still out of it. When I went, she could hear us talking and she would kind of fidget and try to move her head and open her eyes a little bit. It was really heart breaking. But she's hanging in there. Hopefully she keeps improving. Tomorrow they're going to try to take the food tubes out. I hope she makes it. I really do.

After we visited Grandma (by we I mean Mom, Uncle Joe, Uncle Tom, and I) we visited Uncle Eddie, who is also in the hospital. He went to the emergency room today because he had a super high fever (above 101) and some other stuff. It looks like he might have to have surgery.

So basically, this has been a weekend of hospitals. Grandma's been in it, Uncle Eddie's in it now, and I'll be in it tomorrow (although it's the Oral Surgery section) getting my wisdom teeth out. Uncle Eddie said we'll have a pain killers party together.

All in all, it has been quite a day.

Maybe I'll update tomorrow, but it'll probably just be a bunch of mumbo jumbo gibberish stuff. Haha.

Taylor? Who's she?

I doubt anyone will read this considering I haven't updated my blog in forever. But in case you've been wondering where I've disappeared to, I'm here to tell you.

So I'll just give you a recap of my semester.

• I made a 4.0! Straight A's! Woohoo! (And more specifically, I had a 99.something in Spanish.) I'm so relieved. Hopefully I can keep it up?
• Being in the Pride of Oklahoma was absolutely awesome. I met some really great people and I had a lot of fun. I can't wait until next year.
• I regret drifting away from my friends back home, but this semester was so hectic and crazy that I didn't really have time to think about anything but band and school. (And I have the 4.0 to prove it! Haha)
• I really wish I could get a minor in Special Education, but that's not possible. So I'm currently playing with the idea of getting a Masters in it.
• I haven't found a church to plug into and honestly, I wasn't trying too hard to do that. Saturdays were always the longest day of the week with football games and all and I was often out past midnight doing stuff with the band. So I used that as an excuse not to go to church on Sunday. Also, the Pride practices fell at the same time as Bible studies and such, so I didn't do that too often either. I really regret that. It's really hurting me how much I've stumbled.
• I feel like I haven't met that many people. I mean, I've met a lot of people, but I don't have any really close friends. I realized that when trying to plan my birthday dinner. But maybe it's better to only be close to a few people?
• I'm really excited about moving into an apartment with my two new, great friends Ashley and Laney. I don't see them enough, but they're my closest girl friends up at school.
• I just got back from El Paso. I went there for the Sun Bowl game OU was in. We won. It was amazing. I could literally see Mexico from the highway.
• While in El Paso, my mom called me and told me Grandma is in the hospital. She had a massive heart attack. She's been sedated for a few days now. I can't gather enough strength to go visit her because I know as soon as I walk into the room I'll break down and won't be able to stay. I feel like a horrible granddaughter. I cry just thinking about it.
• I started up piano lessons at school. I'm really glad I'm in lessons again. I missed it so much. It gives me a reason to go and practice piano and I end up staying there for much longer than I intended.

That's about all I can think of right now.